determinations from the past...

less party this summer, and more paint.
i'd rather spend my time being productive than crying over a hangover.
cuz hangovers hurt.
especially in the heat.
bane of my existence n shit.


i've decided.
let's see if i follow thru.

i wrote that in my livejournal in may of 2007...i doubt i followed through ~ but i like what i said; holds lots of truth for me :) i love going back and reading the writing i did back then...i was so ambitious, so full of determination to get things done. i viewed life differently, and it's good to be reminded of the way i was. sometimes i find ideas i've completely forgotten about and determinations i'm still holding on to. i think now that i've finished up [been finished up for more than a year!] with school, i've fallen into a different way of thinking; i don't have classes i need to complete or a graduation to work for...i need to find one goal that i can work towards that involves painting. right now i'm all over the place!!

i have big plans, i just need a lot of time and patience to see them through :D

click flyer to enlarge ~ !

i have an event coming up in august that i'm very much looking forward to, but at the same time i'm completely terrified and almost want to back out! which i won't of course...but that's how i feel. i know it'll be good for me to do something like this, considering i've *never* painted in front of a live audience before!! [aside from the lookie-loos when i'm painting at home :P]

also painting that night is the ever-talented max neutra!! now, can you understand why this is so nerve racking for me? max is a well established, insanely skilled live painter, and that's who i will be painting next to...i'm an *extremely* slow painter!! but i have a few ideas that will hopefully allow me to keep up to speed :P


or not. here's the recent taking back sunday video featuring mr. neutra! aye dios mio ^__^ tbs!